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you are my precious prince so bold
you are my very heartbeat
and my expressions unbound
you are the very temple of my soul
in you, i see a fresh tomorrow
a new beginning has just begun
i hope our feelings for each other
will continue to grow
a union of two souls made one

Friday, September 09, 2005

OHMIGOD!! its been such a looooooooooooooooooooong time since i last write an entry here....life has been so hectic....i am currently having a 2 months holiday coz i failed my last sem attachment and have just finished my 2 months attachment making up for it.. and i got hospitalised immediately after that....had a sudden asthma attack...was on my way to tarian when my chest suddenly felt so painful...asked shah to send me to the polyclinic...by the time i reached, i was already crying...they sent me straight to see the doc and had my neb after that...felt better...but when i was having my astma counselling, my chest tighten again...doc gave me another neb but i still felt the same...so he refered me to cgh....had another 2 nebs at the AnE but with no results still....my chest was so tight and painful..i felt like dying..i couldn't breathe...so they decided to keep me there...stayed there for 4 days....well i was really sick the 1st day...but after that i started to feel so bored...went out the 2nd night to my fren's chalet at ecp...was called back by the hosp...wahahaz..went back to sleep...the next night...just slack below eating pizza which my darling brought till i was soo sleepy..hehe 2 days after i was discharged, i start working at charles and keith PS....i love the job...but its an 11 hour shift job with only 45 mins of break...and its a great workout...climbing those huge racks to get the shoes and everything...but my mom didn't like it...she told me to quit..hahaz...so i quit and now i'm just spending my time at home baking and watching tv...its been so heavenly...waking up at noon without my mom screaming at me for being late for school...but it just felt different...being at home...the only thing that kept me busy was my tarian trainings...shows are coming....new recruits are coming...i've decided not to work..i wanna spend my time at home...concentrate on my tarian...and i wanna learn rollerblading...playing the guitar and cooking!!! wahahahz....lets see if i can accomplish all these in 2 months...

aniwaez...just wanna say a huge THANK YOU to my darling shah...coz he was there for me when i realy needed him....and he really took good care of me when i was sick.....i've never loved anibody like i love him..he is just the sweetest guy on earth....-hugz-

# posted by amirah batrisyia | 9/09/2005 02:31:00 AM @m|rAh bAtR|sY|A mAh LoVeS sYeD fArOuK sHaH

Saturday, June 04, 2005

i've never been so scared in my entire life!...met with a bike accident last night..around 11 pm...me and shah was riding as usual...he wanted to change lane...check blindspot..and when he turned back..this chinaman was dashing across the road...shah didn't have time to break..we didn't hit the man..managed to ride past him but he was too near that he lost his balance and fell forward..hurt his head...i hurt my hand...shah got the worst...he got laceration above and below his left eyes...got abrasion on his arms and legs...and a hole in his left feet..quickly called the ambulance..didnt even think about TP or his license then because his face was dripping with blood...all 3 of us were sent to tan tock seng hospital...me and shah waited from 12 to about 5 am to see the doctor...his face was dripping with blood but yet they refuse to see him first..they said he is not bleeding profusely...they left him outside with bloodstains on his face..bloody hospital..thank god for those kind ppl there....not the nurses..but the patients and the security guard...they help to get gauze and everything to help clean the blood...and the freaking nurse still say that we have to wait for the queue....so freaking irritating...i went in first..to have my dressing done..and when i'm finished...shah is still outside!! when he is finally called in..doctor says he need stitches for the laceration around his eyes...then he ask me to push him to the x ray room....damn..only god understands how pissed off i felt...there's only one wheelchair in the doctor's room and one nurse was standing right beside it..looking at shah...and she didn't even help to push the wheelchair to us...instead she just look at him and walk away...i had to call her and ask if she mind pushing the wheelchair...and she came back ..to push the wheelchaiz to us and walk away....my left hand was badanged and i got 2 helmets in hand..how was i spose to push that freaking wheelchair...i had so much troublepushing it.and no nurse..NOONE even offered to help push the wheelchair..the nurses just look at him and look away....i'm so ashamed that there are nurses like this...after pushing him to the x ray and back to the doctor's room...we had to wait again...and the finally his name was called in to the dressing room..i was sitting outside the room...i took a blanket off the trolley coz it was freaking cold...shah's dressing took a long time coz he need to be stitched up and all...so i lied down on the chairs and fell asleep..was woke up an hour later by this malay nurse...she was aksing me who am i waiting for and all..then she went into the dressing room...5 mins later..shah went out...he saw me lying down..then he called back the malay nurse...but she seem to be avoiding him and walked away to the other end of the room...then shah told me that she was asking the other nurse who am i...and she said that i treat this hospital like a hotel...fucking shit...the thought of going back into the room and screaming at the fucking nurse face didn't come across my mind..coz i was freaking sleepy and seeing shah's face swollen like that...i cudn't think..i just pushed his wheelchair out for payments..it was alredy 8 by then...took a cab home....now after a nap and everything...i feel fucking pissed off with all the staff of tan tock seng AnE...esp that fucking malay nurse...only god will understand how i feel...actually i'm typing this to let go of all the anger..but i'm still fucking angry and pissed off!!! HOW??????......i tink i did enough typing..my hand is aching...

# posted by amirah batrisyia | 6/04/2005 07:02:00 PM @m|rAh bAtR|sY|A mAh LoVeS sYeD fArOuK sHaH

Tuesday, May 31, 2005

i am sooooooo tired....been waking up early for the past few days...monday woke up early to meet shah....and i felt sooo lazy to go to work...so took an mc from poly..and just slack around....then on tues woke up early coz i have to be at skool before 9....i have 2037 supp paper...its a pretty easy paper i can say...but if i still fail it...hmmm i must be damn stupid...then i had work till 9..its been a veryy veryy busy day...i went home 20 mins late...coz exactly at 9..when i'm spose to sign out...my staff nurse told me to do a dressing..i mean..i can't say no...and she's busy with her report and all that...so lincah lincah ah buat....perspiring all over...rushing to get it done..hahaz...and shah was in the ward since i started work till about 4...coz his fren is warded in the ward i'm in....luckily i was busy...if not tak kena gaya......after work..went to meet shah's cousin for a while..he got a lil problem so shah kinda talk to him and all..and i have to rush back home..coz i have bio supp paper tomorrow...and i'll be working till 9 again..and its morning shift the following day..have to wake up at 5...haizzz....i'll be so damn exhausted...

# posted by amirah batrisyia | 5/31/2005 11:29:00 PM @m|rAh bAtR|sY|A mAh LoVeS sYeD fArOuK sHaH

Sunday, May 29, 2005

i'm all alone at home..hahaz..went to watch madagascar with my mom, both my brothers,my aunt, my 2 lil cuzzies and my maid...hahaz..it was a funny show..go watch it ppl!..its definately worth it..i wanna go watch monster-in-law...anybody watched it yet?? izzit good?...wudn't wanna waste my money if its not...i went home after watching the movie...the rest headed to my grandma's place...i'm to tired and sleepy to follow lah...its raining some more...nice weather to stay at home....i've not been blogging for one whole week....y?....because i'm on attachment!...its been good..coz my ward has 35 student nurses...hahahz....so we have like practically noting to do...i've been practicing my catwalk up and down the ward...made a lot of new frenz..but its just so sad that i only have one week to spend with them...coz next week there will be a new batch coming in...haizz....

yesterday went out with shah...went to bedok to watch hindustan...then his fre msged him saying that there will be a kenduri at his house...so there's no way we can watch hindustan...so just bought some stuffs..and head down to woodlands where his frens stays....met lotsa more of his frens there...they're nice ppl...ppl that i can click with..so thats great..hahaz..k i am getting more and more sleepy....and i dun tink i;ll be blogging coz i have papers on tues and wed morning...and i'll be on attachment..so c ya ppl next week..chaoz..

# posted by amirah batrisyia | 5/29/2005 06:47:00 PM @m|rAh bAtR|sY|A mAh LoVeS sYeD fArOuK sHaH

Friday, May 20, 2005

i'm gonna hate doris chan forever!!!....i dun care if she happens to come across this blog and read this....listen here...i hate u! and choo wee...but i hate u more coz choo wee is wayyy nicer than u are...i went alla way to school...and she said that i'm gonna have my clinical supplementary next week...such a short notice!..i failed this posting last semester!!! and i'm going for holiday on the 28th....and if i go for the holiday i will miss 2 working days...so i ask her if its possible to put me on saturdays or monday and tuesday the week after i end my attachment..but no...they dun give me any other choice other than..i go for my attachment or i have to make up 8 weeks of attachment and extend 6 months of school..dammit...which means i will graduate one semester later than my frenz...fuck!....she and choo wee dun seem to have any feelings at all....both of them told me that i shouldn't go for the holiday..yes i noe that thats the most appropriate thing to do..but i cannot do this to my family...my mom wudn't go if i dun go..she wouldn't leave any of her child behind...and my family been wanting to go for a vacation but its always cancelled coz of my attachment...my holidays just dun seem to clash with my brothers...and those two lecturers can happily say that if they were my mother they will scold me coz i should focus more on my studies and they will go for holidays without me..tak sayang mulut ah drg....dun compare themselves to my mother....and i wudn't want them for my mother either..heartless creatures...and they were asking 'dun u have any relatives in singapore' in such a sacarstic way...of courselah i have..u tink i'm some bloody chinky izzit...as a woman..dun they understand that mothers cudn't leave their child alone at home while they are at some other country...oh i forgot..they are heartless....

i noe its my fault for failing the vtp...but when i asked doris about my results...all she said was 'i dun know if u will pass or fail...the results are still pending..i'll call u when the results are out' -her exact words-...and its been monthhsssss since she called me...and my vtp posting this semester are out...of course i'll just take note of this schedule and plan the holiday so that it wudn't clash with the attachment..but she just have to call me today and say that my attachment is next week....i admitted that failing it was my fault..but its their fault for posting the schedule online if they know that i'll fail that bloody posting!...i pointed this out to them..and u know what they said?..as usual..the blame is back to me....they said i should have the initiative to enquire about the results and the make up posting....*read the first 3 lines of this paragraph* i did have the initiave ok!...but u said the results are pending!..u said u will kol me once the results are out..i dun belive that results just came out....its too short notice....so u should have the initiative urself to tell me earlier...

i feel so bad that the whole family is affected because of this....i will feel reli bad if they decide to cancel the holiday...but i am not gonna allow it to happen..i'll rather go for the 8 weeks of attachment and 6 months of extra school....coz that way...i will suffer alone..my family won't be affected...fuck the school and their attachments!

# posted by amirah batrisyia | 5/20/2005 02:47:00 AM @m|rAh bAtR|sY|A mAh LoVeS sYeD fArOuK sHaH

Thursday, May 19, 2005

just got a call from doris chan asking me to go to school today....i wudn't mind if my house and the school is like next to each other...its like damnnn far...sickening....she said that i failed a module or sumting like that..and she wants to talk about the coming posting and stuffs...i dun understand lah...but i have a hugee feeling that i will not be going for this attachment...lets just see what she says lah eh....will be meeting shah after school at tanjong pagar...coz he wants me to join him and his frenz for dinner...so yeahz....tata

# posted by amirah batrisyia | 5/19/2005 01:47:00 PM @m|rAh bAtR|sY|A mAh LoVeS sYeD fArOuK sHaH

Wednesday, May 18, 2005

i've been going out for the past three days....haha i dun care!..i've been staying at home way too long alredy.....mom and dad finally gave me back my money...but still no phone...when oh when can i get my phone back...shah skipped work on monday becoz of me...sweetkan...coz i was damn bored and i wanted to go out...hahaz...we were just slacking ah the whole day...did noting...ut thats enough for me...i just like to sit and talk with him..he's fun...and funny..never fail to make me laugh and forget everything that has happened at home...luv him soo much...

yesterday met shah again after his school..went to airport to get his report card and all....after slacking there and everything...we went home without the report card...defeat the purpose of us going there....he also one blur king...i tot i was the only blur one..hahaz...yesterday was fun...silly things happen and everything we said always ended up with laughter...until i got my headache back..hahaz....went home tok to him till 2 and he went to sleep....and i finished up the agatha christie book that i was reading.. i fell asleep at 5....and i had to wake up at 10...coz meeting shah again....he slept earlier than me...and i have to wake him up...met him at nearly 12..went to bedok to watch hindustan but it was close...then fath called saying that she wants to meet us...so we went back to tamp...tot of watching movie....kept calling fath but she didn't pick up her phone..so we sacrifice out movie and waited for her at small mac...she only came one a half hour later...haizzz..and she didn't even bring the helmet that i ask her to....fath..fath...so we just slack there..bought paparoti...ljs salad and slack at coffee bean till around 6..then fath went home to get her tarian stuffs before going tanjong pagar for her sriwana training..then me and shah went to meet some of his frenz at the street soccer...and we just slack around...ate at geylang just now..the food was damnnnn nice...and it was such a huge serving *burb*...and its cheap..so worth it sae...gonna eat there again for sure *yummy yummy*

haiz i reli miss my sriwana days....but i just cudn't find time for it..and i dun like the politics that happen in all these malay organizations....its just sickening...for now i am contented with the tarian group i'm in...even though its small and not well known...we girls bonded well...there's no such thing as 'aku jambu..kau tak...aku tak nak kawan ngan kau'..bullshit sia....and i miss those girls so much..so long since we had our training..due to exams and attachment...i reli feel attached to these girls and i am very commited to this group...coz we were the one who started it...we went through all the ups and downs...all the laughter..all the quarrels...it just makes us even closer to each other...and we've accepted each other despite their weaknesses and everything....kak aisha..kak azura..adeq..nana..ct..abg indra..abg bob..md nur...i miss u guys soo much...i dunno y my mom just dislike me joining tarian...i've been in tarian since i was in pri 6...she was the one who encourage me to join at first but now..everytime i did something wrong..she will always force me to quit tarian...eventhough what i did had noting to do with tarian...weird mom...k i wanna continur reading..chaoz

# posted by amirah batrisyia | 5/18/2005 11:00:00 PM @m|rAh bAtR|sY|A mAh LoVeS sYeD fArOuK sHaH